Tuesday, November 22, 2011










Water and Land

We lost our baby this past Wednesday, November 16th. Ruptured ectopic pregnancy. There are no other words to explain it. Knitting has been my meditation and healing this week, and I decided to put away the things for everyone else so I could knit something just for me. I have been hoarding saving this gorgeous yarn and it was time to use it. "Water and Land" because the color reminds me of the ocean and this shawl is a tangible reminder of a baby that I will never hold in this world, a baby that slipped through my fingers like water. And yet, I have been so supported and grounded by my wonderful family and am reminded daily to appreciate the three wild and crazy children that I do get to hold every. single. day. Oh, and Phin the cat is thrilled that I have spent every waking moment in bed or on the couch. :) My Ravelry notes are here.

Reading? I can't seem to concentrate on that but my fingers are itching to return to The Gift of an Ordinary Day. 

See what others are reading and knitting over at Ginny's gorgeous blog. 
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11 comments:

  1. Crunchy MommaNovember 22, 2011 at 10:05 PM

    Oh..so so sorry for your loss. I lost twins at 14 weeks and though I never met them, I love them and think of them all the time. Be selfish and take care of yourself, you deserve that time. The colorway is beautiful. Tricia at CrunchyCatholicMomma.blogspot

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  2. momto5November 22, 2011 at 10:16 PM

    ((hug)) i am so sorry for your loss. i have lost three babies myself, and i loved them all dearly, even though i never got to hold them. take as much time as you need.

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  3. Lori annNovember 23, 2011 at 12:20 AM

    i can't imagine the sadness you feel right now, losing a much expected and loved baby is so hard,i'm so sorry. i'm glad knitting is soothing you, and that you are being gentle with yourself. take good care.

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  4. LindaNovember 23, 2011 at 2:22 AM

    I am so sorry to read this very sad news.. your shawl is beautiful and how wonderful to have knitting as your comfort right now.
    Warmly
    Linda from South Africa

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  5. JessNovember 23, 2011 at 5:07 AM

    Ectopic pregnancies are so devastating. I am so sorry for your loss.
    I had one that almost ruptured, and I lost the tube, but I went on to have 2 beautiful children after that.
    Healing thoughts are coming your way.

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  6. AnkeNovember 23, 2011 at 5:08 AM

    I am so so sorry for your loss. The yarn you chose for the shawl is lovely, and I'm glad knitting is helping you through this difficult time.

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  7. pinkundineNovember 23, 2011 at 5:50 AM

    So sorry to hear of your loss. It's good that knitting can provide a comfort, and I think your shawl will be a beautiful tribute.

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  8. nunuNovember 23, 2011 at 7:29 AM

    sorry to hear about your loss... i hope you find lots of solace in your knitting and that your children keep you present. beautiful knitting.

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  9. Erica SaintNovember 23, 2011 at 12:16 PM

    I am so very sorry for your loss. Your shawl looks lovely and will be a beautiful reminder of your little one.

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  10. BecksNovember 23, 2011 at 12:23 PM

    So sorry for your loss and hoping that you continue to find solace in your knitting just now.
    xx

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  11. karenDecember 16, 2011 at 12:57 AM

    wishing you love and healing. Your shawl will be a beautiful reminder of your precious angel, it looks wonderful. My nativity is by Willow Tree. I bought it localy but it can also be bought online

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